To witness someone’s anguish, pain and suffering can evoke a
strong sense of sadness. It is a vicarious experience. It is sometimes by
listening to the words of a song and being empathetic with what that person
must have gone through. His or her pains and joys and can lay an impact on one’s
heart and soul. It is a realization that one likes to keep at bay for it has a ‘senseless
effect’: an effect that is shrouded in meaninglessness, like several other
things. Usually one is in a reverie and for some reason; calm in that state,
and sometimes in a nightmare; deeply unsettled. This so called state is a refuge
from everything that is going around. Yes, maybe, these are means of escapism
but the truth of reality is so bitter and so sad that one thinks of ways in
which one can numb oneself, throw oneself in a vortex of lies and forget the
truths of reality.
I am borrowing these lines from a movie:
“Drinking alters your consciousness and weakens you
psychically like it creates cracks and bad stuff creeps in to those cracks and
maybe never go away.” This implies to
those who drown themselves in alcohol to run away from life. This is one of the
many ways. Some do drugs and each one knows uniquely how to enter in a fugue
state. It is bewildering and yet fascinating. This is how mind conjures up
images, beliefs and actions.
In the end, I ask myself yet again, what is the real truth?
